Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Life's unfair! I hate mine! Nothing I do is worth it! No one cares! I gave up everything! Nothing EVER goes right in MY life! I'm freaking TIRED of MY LIFE! WHY DOES EVERYONE GET WHAT THEY WANT EXCEPT ME?!?! What I've worked for, what I've sacrifice for, what I've wasted my time for! And I get NOTHING back!!! There's always something better than what I do. I cant be the BEST even if I try! I'm so disgusted of myself! I HATE ME!!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

KEK SI NIA!!!

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! I WANT TO STRANGLE YOU SO BAD!!! IF I DIE, IT'LL BE BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Not sick Me!

Wow, that sure was fast! My little fever's gone! Went to motor theory today... Had loads of fun! Saw a guy which looks damn lot like a girl! But not pretty... sigh...lol

Been practicing on my cousin's motor recently, and by 'recently' I meant 2 times...

But my butt hurts already... =_=

It's damn easy but due to my lack of confidence and fear of falling, I'm not good at it... sigh...

Gee...Been feeling down lately, I wonder why...

Monday, December 21, 2009

Sick me...

Having a little fever... But mum at Taiwan while dad working at Kayu Hitam...

Both parents not home... no one to take me to see the doctor. They don't even know I'm sick...

Anyways, tomorrow going for Motor Theory... have to sit there for 3 hours and listen to the craps they say... After that, maybe in about a week I'll get my L drivings license. And I'll be able to drive around like a madwoman. But of course, I gotta learn first and I can't fetch anyone yet unless 1)I get my P license and 2)I want to get samban or 3)I wan that person to die with me... lol

Holiday's almost over and Christmas is almost here. I'm not really anticipating for the coming year as it is SPM year which is ALSO my last damn year in PCGHS... This year is by far the most bizarre year ever... it's been a total twist. I mean, I remembered in form 3 we were are peaceful and nothing much happened, and now form 4 and suddenly my life changed. Fell in love after 2 years of being neutral and even confessed it and got hurt inside and out because of my stubbornness, my best friend had her ***** **** with a ****, which is a total shock to me... Went to my first camp... Found out (cencered)... and I'm getting my drivings license soon!

Sigh... Things are changing real fast...

P.S. When I say Death date, I don't really mean me dying..

Shet... Wednesday... My death date...

Bye everyone... it was nice knowing you!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I'm Dead

I feel sick... My throat is burning, my nose is about to bleed anytime, my eyes are soring and my heart is breaking...

Mum went to Taiwan for a whole week, leaving me, my dad and my little sister at home... I don't know what to do... I'm scared... This might happen again and I don't want to lose what I have now... I love this too much to let it disappear... Worst thing is I can't tell anyone what it is, and I doubt they even care...

And that bitch! Argh! I really hope you DIE! Or BETTER, I hope they catch you! I don't want you to take what belongs to me! I'm already halfway DEAD! Do you really want me to completely DIE?!

Maybe I'm better off dead... yeah, its better like that... but I can't leave her all by herself to endure this alone when every thing's at its worst... My life's already gone, hers is still beginning...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Went for Undang test today... Failed with 41/50 when the passing grade was suppose to 42/50... ONE MORE!!! JUST ONE!!!! I damn boh kam muan! And I didn't dare to face my mum... T_T

So I immediately registered for a second time in the same day... which was allowed and I was SO relieved...

Study 3 times harder with some help by calling people and asking them and reading the book over and over again within that 3 hours of waiting.

After re-taking the test, 44/50. LULUS!!! So happy~! ==

But anyway, gonna go for motor teory soon... 3 more hours wasted... But first, I gotta find a motor to learn... I just hope my feet can touch the ground ==

Sigh...


Things are getting worst... I'm gonna lose one of them... and its all thanks to that BITCH! I damn don't want things to go this far... I love what I have right now and I don't want to lose anything... but if this happens, I'm gonna lose everything... and I don't want that... But I cant stop it from happening... Because it doesnt depend on me to change fate... I only wished I could do something about that bitch to prevent this from happening...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I think I'm losing weight!!! ....no wait... I'm just losing blood... ==

Been having constant nosebleeds for 4 days straight... I think I've lost about a quarter of blood in my body by now... Maybe I lack water or something... I just hope this won't effect me for tomorrow's Undang test... I doubt it would because I'll still go for the test even with a bleeding nose xD

P.S. I'm unconditionally and irrevocably in love with NARUTO AND OTANI!!! xP

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Had recording session today. More like more play than recording...

After that, went to a wedding of a rich family. Me and my sister became so cheap go take other people's balloons and cakes home. xD!!!

Went home with an unexpected nose bleed... ==

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Now I understand...

Thanks for telling me what I need to know.

Although it hurts a lot, I'll live. Without this as my burden.

There's no one for me to blame except the cruelty of fate, and it Sux!

Well, what goes around comes around. And I'll be waiting for that very day to see you when it's your turn to suffer.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

PC FAIR!!!!

I wanna go to the PC Fair SO BAD!!!! T_T

Friday, December 4, 2009

Learning slapping...

So hard yet I wanna master it so bad!!!

Its so COOL!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Rot...

Rotting at home for the whole day... Damn bored...

Cant sms because I gotta maintain RM30...

F5 friends have SPM so cant hang out with them...

F4 friends one by one of them either on vacation or working or no time...

Dad outstation AGAIN...

Mum working...

Cant go out... T_T

Here's a pic of me and my sis eating a very sweet pineapple using the Web Cam.


Here's us enjoying the sweet pineapple. (Lol)

You can see that my sis's eyes are aiming at my pineapple.


Then she shoots!




And she DIDNT score! LOL