November 17th

All the girls around me say I've changed... My mum, my sister, my best friends...

It hurts a lot that it they didnt cared to tell me what was wrong and ignored me... I don't like being unhappy... Who does?

Arghhh! Ya so what if I've mixed with a few guys... They're sweet and fun to be with! There's nothing wrong with that!

Things are so complicated right now that I don't know what to do... SPM's just around the corner and I don't have time to deal with this!

Shiat

Looks like Graduation day is over... And so is the year-long-practice dance...

SPM is just 18 days away... Fingers crossed!

I hope I could achieve my goals soon! Time is running out!

October 18

It's been long since I've updated this ancient thing... No comment on life what so ever... Graduation is this Saturday and so is the school's performance. Fingers crossed and hope everything goes perfectly well! After this I think I'll have to start studying for SPM...

Once SPM is over, I'll need to reinvent myself completely and start everything from scratch again in College. I'll be stuck in Penang thought... I feel like I've changed into something I myself couldn't even control.

I'll pray everyday hoping tomorrow will be a happy day.

Peace!

Spm

Damn, we're running out of time for everything... Class Item's clothes, make-up, dance timing... It's all a mess!

I want to do well my part especially my solo part but I can't seem to get it right like the the original!!! I know most people won't notice but I want to be at my best!

Anyways, got my driver's license a month ago and was too lazy to blog about it...

My feelings for anyone, and I really mean it this time, are gone now and I intend to stay that way until I graduate... from College.

I feel betrayed by a certain idiot who is too stupid to realise that she's an idiot. So I want to do something that will SHOW her that she's an idiot. Hopefully I'll get my chance if Fate wants me to...

Bored. Gonna read other people's blogs...zzz

Lame

So many nerve racking events have happened this year already even thought it's just July. I don't wanna talk about much but there's one thing that's been bugging... whenever I look at her, I still feel so good, especially when she's looking back at me... It's like looking at an angel... I know it's been like, a year+ since I've met you and loved you for who you are even though it kills me, tearing me to shreds and stabbing me in the heart. You're the only one who's made me feel this way and I just don't want to lose you. As a friend.

Sucks that you don't even care and don't even have the slightest idea of what I'm feeling. You said you want someone to love you for who you are, but you don't even know that I love you for who you are, and I can tell you that it hurts, but I don't care.

I've used excuse to lie to myself saying that I've moved on, but using other guys to forget about you only worked a little.

You're not going to read this anyway. You only have HER in your eyes. But I don't care. Because you won't know and I'll act like nothing happened. And I'm officially shutting myself out. My pride and dignity has been shattered by unwanted comments from my relatives. They don't know how it feels and I can't explain it to them because they would still say that I was wrong. This is why I don't like talking to them. They don't get it and won't listen and still say hurtful unnecessary rants.

Thanks for hurting my pride, dignity and emotions. I've officially want to sleep and never wake up.

1 week of holiday left...

1 week of my holiday is gone... ==... Going to my grandma's funeral a whole week... haiz... I thought this holiday would be special, maybe getting to hang out with friends, or jam with the band or finish my videos, but guess not... I've lost the chance to hang out with friends and jam with the band when I'm at my grandma's funeral... Call me disrespectful but I really need the fun to get over the pain... I'm so moody right now, really feel like crying everything out, but that'll just remind me of how angry I am.

Grandma passed away....

Grandma passed away the day before my first band performance... mum said it's best for me to not go but she let me go anyways because she knows that it's what I've been practicing so hard for...

Anyways, I've had a great time practicing with our band and not to mention made new great friends... they were so friendly and talented! With their supports and guidance, we've improved so much... And they've opened my eyes to a life I've always dreamed to have... I hope to hang out with them, all of them...again... =D

UGHHH!!!

Suck like hell! This is the worst day EVER! I've finally seen you're true form! No wonder people hate you! Now I'm starting to dislike you! Ughhh!!!

SPM...The horror!

Been practicing on my bass guitar recently...

Which is good 'coz I'm getting better at it...

not advance or anything, just better than before...

But its bad 'coz this year is SPM year...

I'm not nervous about it or anything...

but failing BM is what worries me...

But I can't help it! I'm really lovin' my bass guitar! >_<

Happy 17th birthday, Cee Leah

I want today to be one of the best days of my life...
I want to be smiling the whole day!
I want to get my driving's licence!
I want to play my bass guitar so well, that you'll be impressed!
I want to drive my motor around the highway with the wind blowing in my hair!

But what I really want is just a 'Happy Birthday' from you.

I've said it a thousand times and I'll say it again... I've gotten over her... but she's still special to me in her own way... don't ask me why... she's not a best friend to me, and I doubt I am to her, but she's important to me like one...

So, just smile, you spoilt little brat! Make your teenage life worth it! And FACE IT! Your no good when your being sad! So stop making people pity you and smile! Only True friends will notice that your hiding your sorrows through your smile, only THEN you can cry!

Sien...

I feel so much better that I'm free again... 'free' meaning I get to sleep whenever I want without having to ask 'permission'...zzz...

Another thing, somehow I feel like I've turned into a heartless zombie...==... I don't give a damn at looking at people anymore... Maybe a glance but not more than 3 seconds...

I've been neglacting my studies a lot... I keep telling myself 'after school, I'm going to study at home,' and then at home, I tell myself 'hmmm...maybe after a little nap,' then I set my alarm clock for an hour, then after an hour, 'hmmm...what the heck, Im too tired to study...I'll study tomorrow, sleep now...' and that went on for days...weeks...xD

The exams are next week!

Things are over now

You happy?

Ugh...forget about it...

CNY almost over...

CNY almost over... I can't believe I'm actually missing school...=_=

But that also means... PJ project, Class Item, Inter-class, class food fair, SV project, PM Test... Argh...!

So many things to do...==...

Happy CNY!

CNY's here!

Gee... Time sure flies... Soon enough it's SPM already... (Choi!)

I gotta pass my motor's driving test!!! I JUST HAVE TO!!! I don't care if I never get to ride on it again but I just GOTTA pass it!!!

Been a whole 8 days since I saw him... I wonder if I should... but it's damn risky... haiz... I miss em'...T_T

xD

Went to Pragin for the 4th time this week already! Been having so much fun with them that I'd smile whenever I thought of him xD When was the last time I've had so much fun? I only remembered crying over someone who I lovED and having my heart crushed...

For once, I'm truly happy... I wished it'd stay that way... I want to laugh with them and have a great memory... Especially with him... not in a romantic way! (Duhh!)

Haih...

Busy...ZZZ

It's been a while since I've blogged... Sigh... this year so damn busy no time to make a single video... T_T

Haih... I know I wanna pia my studies, but no time at all...

I have so many things to say but I'm too busy to even blog! GAWD!

Tagged...

*This are th-RULES!*
1.被點到必填.不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷
2.請老實回答每一個問題
3.不能擅自涂改題目
4.寫完后請點8位小朋友.不可不點
5.點完后請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了
6.那8位小朋友填完問卷.必須把問卷寄給你問卷的人


幸福套餐No.1

你的綽號- what??
年齡-16 going on 17
生日-May 19
星座- Taurus
興趣- Being happy (DUHH~!)
專長- Huh??

幸福套餐No.2

你有沒有喜歡的人- Yes
現在幸福不- No
如果天上給你勇氣,最想做什么事- Ask my crush out. Duh~!
如果有天,你愛的人和你告白的話- Yeah right, like THAT's gonna happen...

幸福套餐No.3

點你的人是- Huimin
她是你的- Friend
她的個性- Sometimes veli sampat xD
認識他多久- less that 1 year
你覺得她怎樣- Eats too much but cant gain weight xP
你想對她說什么- I did your tag!!! lol

幸福套餐No.4

最喜歡的節目- Currently, a particular Yaoi Anime xD
最愛的音樂- Japanese songs
最愛的季節- In Malaysia, I don't have much of a choice
最愛的卡通- Anime...
最愛的人- I'm gonna skip this...
最愛的顏色- Apple Green!!
最愛的國家- Japan!
最愛的天氣- A Sunny and Windy day

幸福套餐No.5

如果上天給你3個愿望
-Have lots of money
-Have the ability to travel through time
-Find my soul mate so I wouldnt have to waste my time finding him.

你是很專一的人么- No.
最深刻的回憶- The pain when 'she' hurt me...
你是個很有信心的人么- The exact opposite
你很愛微笑么- Yeah
如果你要放棄你現在的生活,你愿意么- No. Unless I'm giving it up for a better life.
妄想什么樣的生活- A happy and sadless life full of people who loves me.
是否橫刀奪愛才是愛-What is Love anyway?

New Year Resolutions!!!

A lot of experts say that if you write your resolutions on a list, the more likely you'll accomplish it... But of course, don't write what's impossible...LOL

My New Year Resolutions are simply simple and most likely like anyone else.

1) Study hard to do well in SPM
2) Get better results than *censored*
3) Officially decide which college I'm going for.
4) Lose weight...
5) Complete both my series on YouTube

That's about what I can think of... ==

I wonder why...

Gee... Going for motor course seems to be the best thing that has happened to me...

Met new friends, 3 guys... 2 of them 16 and 1 of them 17... what's weird is that the 17 year old one and one of the 16 year old doesn't go to school anymore... I wonder if that's illegal...

And I have no idea why but I keep staring at one of the guys... must be because he LOOKS LIKE A GIRL!!! I like pretty boys... Pretty boys=handsome girls... but this guy's different... his not pretty... he just looks like a girl!!! xD If he wants my advise, he should get braces...

I had fun... And I wish I could keep it that way... I've never been so happy in 2009 until now and the bad memories seem to be haunting me...

And I found out that, whenever I'm reminiscing, my face turns emotionless and people say I have a "I'm gonna kill you" look...=_=

I'm desperate in going to Han Chiang College... I feel that I need to re-invent myself... to finally be proud of myself... I've already wasted my teenage life fooling around... And look where its gotten me... Yeah, sure, being pressure-less is fun... but being left behind is not...

But I've learned a lot from my mistakes...

Like,

Confessing to a girl you like just to give up on her, is WAY harder than it is and hurts damn much...

SMSing to someone who onlines all day, is a TOTAL waste of money...they NEVER reply...

Having friends are the best when you're sad... They have the best shoulder for you to cry on...

Having great reflexes are very usefull when you're crashing onto the wall while riding a motorbike.

You're world revolves around how the person you like treats you...

You'll do ANYTHING for the person you like...

Liking a girl, will make you single forever... =_=

See Cee Leah can DRIVE!!!

Congratulations~ And Celebration~ and bla bla bla... I forgot the lyrics...xD



Good News is, I can drive!!!

Bad News is, I'm not that good...

Great News is, Daddy's gonna buy me a scooter!!!!

Worst News is, I can't ride it...

Best News is, within less than 3 months, I'll be able to fetch people!!!

Terrible News is, I don't have time to go for the practice...



P.S. That is NOT how my license look like...
P.P.S. I love my new friends I met at the course! xD
P.P.P.S. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!