I'm crying OK?!

Today was suppose to be a great day...

Having a great party with my cousins and all...

But dad...

Why must you start this pointless conversation and make me upset when I'm suppose to be happy...

You asked me what have I done to make you happy... I didn't want to answer you...

You yelled... I have no choice...

You've neglected me a long time ago... leaving a huge scar on me that made me feel unconfident, useless and pointless...

I told you the truth, with my tears to prove it....

You didn't know what to answer, so you yelled at me more telling me not to cry...

Mum came, she saw me in tears, but did nothing... Nothing at all...

This scar is deeper than any of my scars, the deepest...

There's no medicine for this... Not EVER...

1902 Subbies!

1902 Subscibers!!! 98 to more to go till I reach 2k!!!

And I saw this comment left by a subscriber... Totally took me off guard and I laughed real hard lol here's what it says ' i watched all of ur series and i thought that they were awesome and so pro, but i wuz sad when i sa wo of ur series unfinished!!!! im very disapointed in u! D=< '

Cute...lol

Yuck...

Rereading every past posts about love and stuff feels... YUCK!

DELETE DELETE DELETE!!!

I don't even like love talk and stuff...gross... lol

Efforts...

Argh!!! I feel like crushing you with my bare hands!!!


Sigh...

Finished the 3 hours of Karate training...felt so sweaty... But I don't think I put much effort into any of my punch or kicks... sigh...

-Slaps myself-

How come everything I do will turn out effortless?

I love karate... but I'm no good at it... still stuck in brown 2...

I love my bass... but why can't I play it well?!?!

I love to draw... but I can't draw anything BUT manga...

I love to animate... but my computer keeps me from doing anything right...

I love you... but nothings gonna happen between us because you won't know... and even if you do, you won't care...

Freedom!

For the first time in a very VERY long while, I felt free!

Well, not REALLY free, just free from my feelings and emotions!

Its been a while since I felt NORMAL again...

And it's the BEST!

Even if its just a scam, I didnt care anymore...

I just want to be happy! To be ME!

When was the last time I liked a guy? I mean, a GUY! Ever since those two idiots came in my life, I didnt think I'd trust guys anymore... Well, I don't hate guys, just don't trust them anymore... Well, except you JZ, xD!

Hmmm...I wonder what I can do to the picture he gave me... I won't burn it, coz that's what idiots who are in love do, but I'm not in love with him, so I'm gonna keep his picture and SHOW THE WORLD WHO THIS IDIOT IS! MUAHAHAHA!

-Chokes-


x_X

Just a thought...

Review everything I've been keeping with me that reminds me of you...

I find the mood I used have, placing myself behind humbleness...

Waited for too long, Tears shed when thinking of you...

But what's happiness to me?

Whenever I'm in love, I felt hurt
Whenever I'm hurt, I start crying
And I'm tired of crying...

Don't want to hurt you but got hurt instead...

I kept every memories I have, everything great about you, like an addictive drugs that was cheating on me...

I was always forcing myself in this dilemma, I asked myself to let go...

Closed my eyes and let you go,to forget everything and start all over...

Drowned in my own pool of tears... No mood in doing anything at all... pulled a fake smile in front of my family just to get by each day... And they bought it... Not only them, those who think I'm happy were all fooled...


Been a while since I've cried... cried yesterday...it was refreshing...


Life's so unfair...



You mean so much to me

I just wish I could tell you now

but I would never be able to find the words

without Breaking Down



Found these interesting quotes on the net... they sound so deep...

Tagged

被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。

(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。



♥ 被点到的:

1. Yan Yan
2. Hui Min
3. Eunice
4. MayKim
5. Longgan
6. Yee Jia
7. ZhiTing
8. Longgan
9. May May
10. Jingyi



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01 - [ 4号认识6号吗? ]:: Ofcoz, or I wouldnt be tagging them
02 - [ 10号是男还是女? ]:: girl
03 - [ 8号的兴趣是? ]:: Super Junior! xD
04 - [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]:: I know she has a Brother!
05 - [ 7号姓氏? ]:: Yong
06 - [ 10号人缘好吗? ]:: Yup
07 - [ 4号有人追吗? ]:: Not sure but if I had to guess, I'd say YES!
08 - [ 承上2号呢? ]:: Har?
09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]:: Last year was blue, donno this year got change or not
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]:: Yup!
11-[ 8号的生日是? ]:: -checks calender- August 2!
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]:: PCGHS
13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]:: Same primary school and Librarian
14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]:: Not sure
15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]:: Does going to her house count?
16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]:: Yes!
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]:: If u mean Hanging out, then yes!
18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:: A Prefect! xP
19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]:: Cute! xD
20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]:: As a friend, yes.

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1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的:: Wen Chien
2. 你们认识多久呢:: 3 years?
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗:: Yup!
4. 你与他(她)的关系是:: good friends?
5. 你觉得他(她)的个性如何:: Special!
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是:: Finding her special someone! xD

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問 : 當你在更衣室沖水门忽然被打开了你会...
答 : 'WEI!!!' then take the shower to shower that person

問 : 海中忽然大浪來襲后你发现比基尼小姐上身泳裝被沖掉了,你会...
答 : OMG! LOOK AT THAT GIRL!!! xD

問 : 去海边玩会使用咩交通工具
答 : I'll pay for the hourse back riding fee and rides away on the hourse

問 : 你突然发现沒帶泳裝泳衣你会買吗
答 : No, coz whats the point of buying a swimsuit if I cant swim? (plus, I think I 'forgot' to bring my swimsuit on purpose)

問 : 会的。。
答 : What?

問 : 回去时发现有其他遊客手机沒拿 你会觉得是哪牌子的
答 : Either Nokia or Sony Erricson

問 : 海边对你來说是
答 : A place where Tsunamies roam!

問 : 看到镜子会不由自主的向前吗
答 : Maybe yes maybe no

問 : 经常用洗面乳吗
答 : No I guess?

問 : 说到自恋会想到谁
答 ：Tan Yi Wei!

問 : 有人说该減肥了你会
答 ：Not eat infront of them

問 : 自恋 適合你吗?
答 : No...

Sigh...

Computer busted for a whole week...

Stupid virus...

But now its FIXED! Reformatted!

But all the programs gone...GONE~ I TELL YOU!

And the memories...ALL MY SONGS! MY VIDEOS! MY PICTURES!!!!




ARE STILL HERE!!! xD


Good thing I save everything in an extended Hard drive...