What should I do now?

SPM is over now and I'm like seriously BOREEEEEEED!

Came back to the Genting and KL trip already... Time flies, doesn't it?

The trip was........................... Ok it was not that great.... Going with cousins were fun and all, but not THAT fun... It had mostly to do with all of us wanting to have our own fun, which is all different... There's A's nerdy fun, and B's girly fun, and C's gamer fun... DIFFERENT THINGS!

And there's like less than 30 people in the trip... 27 people? I didn't pay that much attention... xD

I won't comments about the people in this trip mainly because they're all totally different and also because I didn't get the chance to know them that much...

And now, school for the schoolers has begun and I still don't know what I should do... Ok I know what I should do but I don't know how to do it....

I'm gonna stop typing now because I'm gonna go practice driving...heeeeee~ XP

November 17th

All the girls around me say I've changed... My mum, my sister, my best friends...

It hurts a lot that it they didnt cared to tell me what was wrong and ignored me... I don't like being unhappy... Who does?

Arghhh! Ya so what if I've mixed with a few guys... They're sweet and fun to be with! There's nothing wrong with that!

Things are so complicated right now that I don't know what to do... SPM's just around the corner and I don't have time to deal with this!

Shiat

Looks like Graduation day is over... And so is the year-long-practice dance...

SPM is just 18 days away... Fingers crossed!

I hope I could achieve my goals soon! Time is running out!

October 18

It's been long since I've updated this ancient thing... No comment on life what so ever... Graduation is this Saturday and so is the school's performance. Fingers crossed and hope everything goes perfectly well! After this I think I'll have to start studying for SPM...

Once SPM is over, I'll need to reinvent myself completely and start everything from scratch again in College. I'll be stuck in Penang thought... I feel like I've changed into something I myself couldn't even control.

I'll pray everyday hoping tomorrow will be a happy day.

Peace!

Spm

Damn, we're running out of time for everything... Class Item's clothes, make-up, dance timing... It's all a mess!

I want to do well my part especially my solo part but I can't seem to get it right like the the original!!! I know most people won't notice but I want to be at my best!

Anyways, got my driver's license a month ago and was too lazy to blog about it...

My feelings for anyone, and I really mean it this time, are gone now and I intend to stay that way until I graduate... from College.

I feel betrayed by a certain idiot who is too stupid to realise that she's an idiot. So I want to do something that will SHOW her that she's an idiot. Hopefully I'll get my chance if Fate wants me to...

Bored. Gonna read other people's blogs...zzz

Lame

So many nerve racking events have happened this year already even thought it's just July. I don't wanna talk about much but there's one thing that's been bugging... whenever I look at her, I still feel so good, especially when she's looking back at me... It's like looking at an angel... I know it's been like, a year+ since I've met you and loved you for who you are even though it kills me, tearing me to shreds and stabbing me in the heart. You're the only one who's made me feel this way and I just don't want to lose you. As a friend.

Sucks that you don't even care and don't even have the slightest idea of what I'm feeling. You said you want someone to love you for who you are, but you don't even know that I love you for who you are, and I can tell you that it hurts, but I don't care.

I've used excuse to lie to myself saying that I've moved on, but using other guys to forget about you only worked a little.

You're not going to read this anyway. You only have HER in your eyes. But I don't care. Because you won't know and I'll act like nothing happened. And I'm officially shutting myself out. My pride and dignity has been shattered by unwanted comments from my relatives. They don't know how it feels and I can't explain it to them because they would still say that I was wrong. This is why I don't like talking to them. They don't get it and won't listen and still say hurtful unnecessary rants.

Thanks for hurting my pride, dignity and emotions. I've officially want to sleep and never wake up.

1 week of holiday left...

1 week of my holiday is gone... ==... Going to my grandma's funeral a whole week... haiz... I thought this holiday would be special, maybe getting to hang out with friends, or jam with the band or finish my videos, but guess not... I've lost the chance to hang out with friends and jam with the band when I'm at my grandma's funeral... Call me disrespectful but I really need the fun to get over the pain... I'm so moody right now, really feel like crying everything out, but that'll just remind me of how angry I am.

Grandma passed away....

Grandma passed away the day before my first band performance... mum said it's best for me to not go but she let me go anyways because she knows that it's what I've been practicing so hard for...

Anyways, I've had a great time practicing with our band and not to mention made new great friends... they were so friendly and talented! With their supports and guidance, we've improved so much... And they've opened my eyes to a life I've always dreamed to have... I hope to hang out with them, all of them...again... =D

UGHHH!!!

Suck like hell! This is the worst day EVER! I've finally seen you're true form! No wonder people hate you! Now I'm starting to dislike you! Ughhh!!!

SPM...The horror!

Been practicing on my bass guitar recently...

Which is good 'coz I'm getting better at it...

not advance or anything, just better than before...

But its bad 'coz this year is SPM year...

I'm not nervous about it or anything...

but failing BM is what worries me...

But I can't help it! I'm really lovin' my bass guitar! >_<

Happy 17th birthday, Cee Leah

I want today to be one of the best days of my life...
I want to be smiling the whole day!
I want to get my driving's licence!
I want to play my bass guitar so well, that you'll be impressed!
I want to drive my motor around the highway with the wind blowing in my hair!

But what I really want is just a 'Happy Birthday' from you.

I've said it a thousand times and I'll say it again... I've gotten over her... but she's still special to me in her own way... don't ask me why... she's not a best friend to me, and I doubt I am to her, but she's important to me like one...

So, just smile, you spoilt little brat! Make your teenage life worth it! And FACE IT! Your no good when your being sad! So stop making people pity you and smile! Only True friends will notice that your hiding your sorrows through your smile, only THEN you can cry!