...zzz...

One thing I hate about holidays is that I have nothing to do when I'm bored of everything...

Cant finish RTF videos when I don't have the rest of the recordings... So I'll have to wait... The rest of the parts are done though...

I dont have inspiration for my own videos...

No new youtube videos to follow...

Lazy to watch series unless its D.I.E...

Planning to excercise in the gym but chickened out...

Wanted to call someone to chat on the phone but my phone bill is damn expensive...

Planning to take the motor driver's license...

Mum bought a webcam and a pendrive for me... <3 her so much! That's coz she usually doesnt buy them for me...

Gosh, I have almost eveything I want... ALMOST...

Next on my list is that computer drawing thingie...you know, the one where people use them to draw stuff on the computer... Donno what its call but I want it!

And a microphone...makes it easier for my video recordings.

Atleast this is what $$ can buy...

This is total BULLSHIT OK?!

IT SUCKS being ME!

Nothing is worth it anymore!

I'm better off DEAD!

Money Money Money!!

Went to Pragin today... bought LOADS of new clothes!

And spent RM200 on them!

Bought my first high heels... Which, I'm not sure if I can walk with them...xD

But it sure was fun. First time being able to be fashionable for a change.

Made some new adult friends and even some little friends. Got loads of discounts too! xD

But...now I need...MONEY!!!

And I'm waiting for my parents to come back home and scold me for spending so much xP

......

Shet...

My sis's swollen, red eyes has passed on to me...

Damn hurts...

Hate this...

Argh!!!

Abracadabra Clsee93's Maple Version!

LOL

Finished it in half a day.

I know its cacat but I learnt new skills! xP




In case you've never seen or forgotten how the Abracadabra 'booty dance' is, check it from here.

Exams

Exams for this year are finally over and I'm totally preparing for my grave!

Was moody last night, around 1.40 a.m., couldnt sleep so I took out a pencil and paper and started drawing...

I took out one on my K-Zone magazines and chose a picture of Jessica Simpson to draw... But as I draw her, it looked nothing like her so I stopped drawing her and drew something different...
































Then after some adjustment...
















I know I know, it looks cacat...


Well, a few days before exam even started, my annoying little sister was eating a pack of rollar coaster's BY HERSELF, while watching TV. Then suddenly she did this....

















How 'high' can you go~?
















Please ignore the giant wine behind the tall pile of rollar coaster's. Thank you.

I'm crying OK?!

Today was suppose to be a great day...

Having a great party with my cousins and all...

But dad...

Why must you start this pointless conversation and make me upset when I'm suppose to be happy...

You asked me what have I done to make you happy... I didn't want to answer you...

You yelled... I have no choice...

You've neglected me a long time ago... leaving a huge scar on me that made me feel unconfident, useless and pointless...

I told you the truth, with my tears to prove it....

You didn't know what to answer, so you yelled at me more telling me not to cry...

Mum came, she saw me in tears, but did nothing... Nothing at all...

This scar is deeper than any of my scars, the deepest...

There's no medicine for this... Not EVER...

1902 Subbies!

1902 Subscibers!!! 98 to more to go till I reach 2k!!!

And I saw this comment left by a subscriber... Totally took me off guard and I laughed real hard lol here's what it says ' i watched all of ur series and i thought that they were awesome and so pro, but i wuz sad when i sa wo of ur series unfinished!!!! im very disapointed in u! D=< '

Cute...lol

Yuck...

Rereading every past posts about love and stuff feels... YUCK!

DELETE DELETE DELETE!!!

I don't even like love talk and stuff...gross... lol

Efforts...

Argh!!! I feel like crushing you with my bare hands!!!


Sigh...

Finished the 3 hours of Karate training...felt so sweaty... But I don't think I put much effort into any of my punch or kicks... sigh...

-Slaps myself-

How come everything I do will turn out effortless?

I love karate... but I'm no good at it... still stuck in brown 2...

I love my bass... but why can't I play it well?!?!

I love to draw... but I can't draw anything BUT manga...

I love to animate... but my computer keeps me from doing anything right...

I love you... but nothings gonna happen between us because you won't know... and even if you do, you won't care...

Freedom!

For the first time in a very VERY long while, I felt free!

Well, not REALLY free, just free from my feelings and emotions!

Its been a while since I felt NORMAL again...

And it's the BEST!

Even if its just a scam, I didnt care anymore...

I just want to be happy! To be ME!

When was the last time I liked a guy? I mean, a GUY! Ever since those two idiots came in my life, I didnt think I'd trust guys anymore... Well, I don't hate guys, just don't trust them anymore... Well, except you JZ, xD!

Hmmm...I wonder what I can do to the picture he gave me... I won't burn it, coz that's what idiots who are in love do, but I'm not in love with him, so I'm gonna keep his picture and SHOW THE WORLD WHO THIS IDIOT IS! MUAHAHAHA!

-Chokes-


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