Long LONG Post...

Came back from Camp today... xD... I miss my phone, my computer and most importantly, my family!

Currently no pictures of the camp because phones, cameras, mp3, and other electronics are not allowed...

Here's what happen in these 4 days 3 nights stay from my point of view (note, I'm not Buddhist so its hard for me to adopt the buddhist rules)

Day 1
After looking for my group, (which has 10 different groups) they asked for my phone and I said I dont have it with me (its the truth), and since its ok with them, they told me my room number and I went straight up with JY...

Then I found my room and went to their Hall where everyone's gathering. They told us to tuck in our shirts and we were only allowed to wear long pants...(yes, LONG pants, as in, no short or quater long pants allowed...) Since I was wearing a quater long pants, I wasnt allowed in unless I change... (I was like, WTF) I quickly borrowed a pair of long pants from a friend, whom is also from PCGHS but I've never spoken to her before (conclusion, we became quick friends)

Many of my friends are in different groups so I had to make new friends fast... They started with games and stuff and suddenly, another familiar face appeared... it was my junior in St John (for choral speaking viewers, it was Ah Lim xD) and who'd knew we'd end up in the same group...lol

Then after some games, we had our first group meeting. First, we started off with introductions... and I found out that I was the eldest in within the girls...=.= ..but in the guys, there's a form 5 and a few form 4s (I was like, phew! atleast I'm not the eldest) xD

Altogether there are 17 of us, and we have 2 爱心哥哥 and 1 爱心姐姐, and a 爱心爸妈. So altogether there's 22 of us (20 excluding the 爱心爸妈) After another round of games, we had another meeting. This time, we chose our leader... The form 5 dude as the leader (because he is the eldest) and me...(because I'm the eldest in within the girls...T.T) (I was like, OMG...)

(This is only the beginning but its already this long...I'mma shorten everything)

1st day sucked because too much chanting and less fun and games... too much rules and too little time to make new friends...

The chanting was so damn LONG (not that I'm insulting the buddhist culture) I mean, its like 'A~~~ Mi~~~~~~~~Tuo~~~Fuo~~~~' (note: each pronouncation lasted more than 5 seconds...)

My mind was full of regret of coming here at that time...I wanted to go home really bad...

and the food...(omfg...) Too many rules...We cant talk, smile, laugh, and we must sit straight because its called manner...(I call it 'Shit'...)

Then there's a studying session... the monk's tutorials...It lasted for an hour and I was so bored...nearly fell asleep... the female monk (she talks too much...) kept telling us that we were lucky to be here because we get to learn about buddhist things and that we should appriciate it... but in my mind, I was scolding the monk back saying that I didnt know it was suppose to be full of lessons and that I was here for a reason, and this reason is for me to have fun and forget about the sorrows...but I see that its pointless now...

Slept at 12am something coz we were too busy chanting...it lasted for more than half an hour!!!...(I was totally like, UGH!!)

But made some friends with only the girls...

Day 2 (FINALLY!)

Woken up at 6am...didnt get a chance to take a bath because there are only 2 bathrooms and with only 30 minutes time to get ready...try fitting 10 girls in two bathroom within 30 minute! Many didnt get to take baths, like me... so we only change our clothes...

Then went to the hall to gather again...Did some activities and listened to another one of the monk's tutorials...this one lasted for an hour and a half! But after that, we finally started playing station games! Yay!

We played and had a great time...made friends with the guys...(funny fellows...xD) But the thing I remember most is that, at our last station, we climbed from the 1st floor to the 6th floor to look for the station...but then, someone said its suppose to be at the ground floor...so we ran back down to the G floor and suddenly, someone said its on the 5th floor! (OMFG..I was so dead tired!)But no choice, we climbed back up to the 5th floor (note: There are 10 tall steps in half a floor, so we climbed a total of 320 steps...OMG!)

Finally finish with the station games and took a bath (finally!) Had chats with the guys during dinner time (secretly chat)... Found some chat topics...very funny...Who knew, I only asked the leader 1 question and the guy beside him heard it too and came in to join in too! Then the girl next to me joined in too but that was already another topic...We found out alot of things about each other, including the fact about me being 16...The guys are all shocked! They are like, OMG, YOUR Form 4?! I thought you're just form 2!

Then Skip to bedtime...Chant again before sleep...Damn annoying...(At that time, I was so sure I will never go there again...)

Day 3
Had a better night, even had a dream...lol...

During breakfast, "na~mo~a~mi~to~fuo~" (I grited my teeth...)I was so hungry and staring at my food but the chant JUST COULDNT STOP!!!

Finally, had some time to chat (again, secretly) this time, one of the 爱心哥哥 sat beside our leader (who was sitting behind me) (girls sit infront and boys at the back, so girl leader sits infront and boy leader sits at the back) We didnt chat much but then during 'card making' time, we chat again (openly, its very clear that our group is the loudest) and we chated about meeting after the camp, then our 爱心哥哥said OK just tell him our address and he could take us there...I told him my address and he asked if there are rents available...I said yea but someone died there before...He said'Har?! ....Owh! Nah, its ok, I've seen these things in NS before..." and I was like, "REALLY?! How many times? Can you tell me?" then he paused for a second and we all (yea, the others too) chatted about ghost for...until now? lol

Then all the group leaders were asked to make lucky draws and choose a parformance for the next day's ending ceromony (or something like that)... We got 'singing and hand action(?)'(no idea how to say it)...

Then by night, all of the parents came (except mine and some others) for our Gan En Yuen... Alot of people cried...I was solid at first, then when all the kids who's parents has come went to see their parents, one of the guys in our group asked me "这位姐姐,why arent you crying? (in chinese, lazy to type)" I smiled and said, "you want me to cry?! OK! I can do that, just sponser me tissues! xD" he said "Oh! I have! Here! (takes out a pack of tissues...) =.=... then when our 爱心妈妈 hugged me, I really started crying...I didnt realise that I missed my family that bad...

Skip again...
Day 4 (Today) Final day
My eyes...swollen xP

We practiced our Singing and hand action performance and exchanged our contact infos with the the group, by now, I'm friends with all of them...including the guys (which is a shock to me because I'm not much of a 'make friends with boys' person)... By then, I was able to hit, tease, yell, laugh at the guys...I NEVER thought I could do that...LOL! They guys are so damn FUNNY! But they like to poke me and the girl beside me... lol

We celebrated some grandma and grandpa's birthdays and the leader asked the guy, who asked why I wasnt crying, to dance with him! lol!! It was so GAY!

The leader, one of our 爱心哥哥 and that guy, they call themselves the F3s,(Flower 3!!!xD)...XD They call themselves '如花', '如美' and '如水'! LMAO! They act so SO GAY! lol

'如水'said he'd never act so GAY in his life! LMAO!!!

Then by 3.30pm, we prepared the performance and Popping Boy (A.K.A. Robot of our group) stood in the middle(by force because of his remix of our hand actions! xD

We had tons of fun and even blindfolded our 爱心哥哥 (the other one) and our 爱心姐姐...we tried to let them hug each other blind but failed when they noticed what we were up to...Popping boy took the chance to hit our 爱心哥哥...lol...he would turn to laugh with me when our 爱心哥哥 tried to look for the hitter, blind... lol...but when I let my guard down, our 爱心哥哥took my hand and wouldnt let go because he thought that I was the hitter...LOL...the others told him that I was not the hitter and he let go after some hesitations because he thought that we were lying...LMAO!!! Popping boy look at me in shock and said, "you took the punishment FOR me? lol" zzz...ahaha!

We wrote some comments on everyone's book... most of mine is mainly about how cute I am (got meh?!) and how white I am (zzz...) and some said to keep in touch and a few funny comments...lol...especially '如美's...lol

Then we took some pictures when we got our phone back, correction, when THEY got THEIR phone back...lol... we said we'll keep in touch and send the pictures to each other soon...lol... This definately changed my mind of not wanting to join this camp again...lol...

Its so weird...lol, I never thought I'd have another guy friend, let alone 10! It definately helped me to forget about the sorrows...lol

Finally! Its Done! LOL...Longest blog I've ever written...kakaka...I bet no one will read it...haha!

A trip to QB

Woke up and went for Karate today and came back home sweating like crazy. Then rush back home by 11am to get ready to go to QB with Eunice and JZ.

After preparing myself in 15 minutes, JZ came early than I expected so I ran down with my hair still wet... Lol

Then we left by 11.30am and arrived at QB by 11.45am... earlier than we planned.

So we met Eunice just in time her bus stop then we went to get our tickets to watch 17 Again (was suppose to watch Monsters vs Alien but then JZ already watched it and he was the one who told us to watch it...) Then we walked up and down QB and chated... went to eat then went to the arcade! lol we played car racing and I won the first 3 rounds but got second in the final round to JZ...T.T

Then we waste our time chatting again and finally went to the movies...

It was so hilarious! But not as good as I expect it to be...xD

And some stars came to perform something but I have no idea who they are... Eunice and JZ seem to know them but arent a big enough fan to care...

Then we chatted again and eventually went back to the arcade to play the racing game again... And this time, I lost... lol But after playing it, I found a phone on my seat!!! Its not ours so we tried to do a good deed by finding its owner... we called the mother and eventually their still there. The little brother reconized the phone and the father said its his daughter's and pointed to a bitchy looking girl listening to another phone!!! The girl took the phone and the father told the girl to thank us... She said thanks but her attention wasnt even on us or her phone! Then we left...

So the lesson we've learnt today is, DON'T BE TOO HONEST! I mean, that girl should at least show some concern for her own phone! I mean, its a PHONE!!! We all regretted returning the phone because its so not worth it! JZ could have had a new phone! lol... So dont be a goody two shoes... Stick to the urban sayings, FINDERS KEEPERS LOSERS WEEPERS! xD

Went to McD and ate ice cream... then went home... sigh...lol this might be the last time this year to go out with Eunice... but we took some pictures... lol

Damn I'm so bored...

My English Oral

We had our english oral today, and guess what, I didnt even prepared a script!

My teacher said its ok and told us to just say whatever's on my mind...

So here's what I said...

WLP: So, what's your title?
CL: Um... My title is 'The kind of life I would want to live when I grow up'
WLP: Ok, so you may start...
CL: ....err....
WLP: Start with 'good afternoon teacher, my title for today is...'
CL: Good Afternoon teacher, ...my title for today is 'The kind of life I would want to live when I grow up... err.... um... When I grow up, I hope to make a living by writing novels and getting them published...
WLP: Chinese Novels?
CL: um...English Novels...
WLP: Oh...
CL: And I hope that I will be successful and get famous... And I hope to have a caring and loving family...er.....
WLP: .....Tell me about your family...
CL: Um... I would have a husband and two children (swt...) and I hope my husband is also successful. And he must be kind and gentle...
WLP: Oh, gentle and responsible la...
CL: Yea...
WLP: Handsome?
CL: .......y-yea...
WLP: Oh...
CL: ........No la, I prefer him to have a pretty face (xD)...
WLP: Har?! P-Pretty ar?
CL: haha...yea...
WLP: Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer......like girl ar?
CL: ...............................................yea...
WLP:..................................
CL: But cannot be as pretty as me laa...(xD!!!) haha
WLP: Ohh...*giggles*
CL: ...and um... I would want to live in a beautiful condominium resort...and err...
WLP: ...and?
CL: err........... and......and I would want to have..... er....
WLP: to have? *getting excited*
CL: to have a....err...
WLP: *nervous*
CL: ....to have a dog?
WLP: ..............oh...*a little dissapointed*
CL: So that my children can play with it and grow up in a healthy enviroment.....
WLP: Oh... Ok... sign here...*gives the score paper*
CL: Oh... *Saw 21 in the total score...* (21/30...haiz...very dissapointing...)

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Emo me speaking...
I'm so afraid... of going back to the miserable days...

It hurts alot! ...and thinking of it reminds me of the pain...

I'm so scared... I dont want to go back! It hurts so much!

I cant bare the pain! Help! Please! No! I dont want to go back!

Please dont leave me! I dont want to be alone! Its just too scary!

I'm not used to that life! I want to be Happy! I want to be Free!

No! I dont want to go back to those miserable days...

Please Dont Take me back! No!

I'm too afraid! Its my phobia now... I'm serious...

I dont want to go back to those crying days...

Its tiring and it hurts... I'll go blind if I shed another tear...

No jokes applied... I am DEAD serious...

Ugh!

If there's really such a thing called sweating through my eyes (yea, its from Phinease and Ferb xD) then I bet every drop of water in my body will be dried up...

Ok, I admit, I have 'crocodile eyes' which means that I can easily cry...but this is ridiculas! I'm crying for stupid reasons!

Like, when on my birthday, I was feeling very VERY miserable at the beginning...until I saw Eunice and the others... We had a chat and YJ & Eunice even gave me a handmade birthday card! YJ also gave me a little present which is more than enough for me... So we were chatting and then I told Eunice something (I forgot what it was) then she hit me with her KOMSAS a few times, and I laughed... After a few minutes, she hit me again and I dont know why but I suddenly thought of 'that' thing and the next thing I knew was tears coming out from my eyes...I cried...

Then today when I was 'bothering' Eunice and her friend, YJ came and talked to Eunice about I dont know what and X was saying something to me since she didnt want to disturb Eunice...Then I signal something which was meant as a joke and the next thing I knew was X strangling me...lol... it didnt hurt but it tickles...so I laughed and even fell on my knees and got up again and back on the floor and I was having fun... til I thought of the same thing again then I started crying again...

Then after school I got really REALLY mad! I didnt show it until I reached home... I kept it locked up until my little sister annoyed me and it just snap and the next thing I knew, I shouted unrationaly at her... My parents was shock but didnt scold me and even asked me what happened, ofcorse I couldnt tell them what pissed me off so I told them that my sis annoyed me... it was good enough for them and they didnt bother me..

I went back to my room and whadda ya know, tears came darting down again...I hurried and text my rage on my phone and nearly send to the wrong person (which is the person I'm mad at) ... It was the worst emotional moment EVER! And it wasnt even a direct hit from the shooter...yea, with only minor injuries, I was already hurt deeply...

I cant believe I went so low for NOTHING!

Sigh...

Exams this Monday... But here I am blogging...

Currently loving Younha's Strawberry Days...also introduced by the same person...haha...

Sigh... What should I do? I'm totally in pain (mentally)! I'm losing something very much important to me... and how can I get it back?

I dont get it... I dont get it at all... Why? I know very well myself that the important thing I'm losing isnt worth it at all... but why am I wasting every self concious of myself insisting to get it back? (and failing...)

The part of me, the part I never knew I had, is slowly surfacing... And I'm losing my mind just wanting to get rid of it... Like my cousin said, I'm getting emo-ish-er...

My mind says this but my heart says that...

But my heart won in the end...

And I'm so F*CKED UP about it!

My normal self is fading away, and I dont like this new self of mine...in fact, I hate it...

Its ruining my life...

Wracking every part of it...

In truth, I never wanted this important thing... but as my new self approuched, it became my life...

Just one look completes my day...
Just the thought of it is enough to keep me busy...
Just dreaming of it is enough to make me happy...

But that also means...

Just one day of ignorance is able to make me want to end my entire life...
Just one glare is able to make me lose confidence of everything...
Just one turn from you is able to make me think all the negativities about myself...
Just 3 words is able to make me feel like now... and the 3 words are 'I Hate You'



God... I'm really getting emo-ish-er... sigh...

Peace, Love and Ice-Cream

A few days ago a friend of mine introduced me this song...

I kinda liked it coz it makes me feel calm and peaceful...away from the misery I'm feeling...

And thanks to him, I'm a Younha fan too...xD

Younha's Peace Love and Ice Cream...

Happy Mothers Day!!!

Wow! Today's Mother's Day! And All my cousin from my mother's side came to celebrate!

Theres Ice-creams, Bihun, Jelly and bla bla bla...

At first it was very boring coz theres nothing to do... then, by evening, my mum took out the cake we bought before at Tesco to celebrate mothers day and my birthday (eh-hum...early celebration...haha)!

Here's the cake..

The cake when its being lit...

Me Embarrased...

Everyone (almost everyone) Singing Happy Birthday and Mothers day song...

The Cake Being Cut...

My Slice...
My sis And My Aunt... (look at my sis's face...lol)

My Cousin eating (bwahaha...)

His little brother (like big brother like little brother lol)

What's left of the cake 1 minute later...haha



What's left of the cake 10 seconds later...lolx






I guess that's it haha...its like, only 10.57pm and I havent even prepare my bag for tomorow! Lol...Well, Nights guys~! xD

P.S. Did you notice that all my cousins are guys? xD

And the votes are in!!!

Ok, so I checked out Hui Shan, Hui Min, Eunice & Kido's Choral speaking Couple list, and its tons of laughs! There are some similiar couples, which means those are our 'votes'...

And if I made mistakes, dont came after me...It was really tough matching all up...hahax


The couples which appeared twice...

Hui Min & Hui Shan
The Mamak Girls
Eunice & Eugenie
Leh theng & Sze Lin
Hsiang Hsiang & Alison
Hsiang Hsiang & Rhys
Yan Yan & ChiaYing

Trice...
Yan Yan & Bei Bei
Yan Yan & Hui Shan
Yan Yan & Hui Min
Yan Yan & Cee Leah (I disagree with this one...haha)
Eunice L & Cee Leah (got meh?)
Hui Min & Leh Theng
Hsiang Hsiang & Ah Lim
Paula Abdul & Fennie
Eunice & Maegen

And Finally...the couples with the most appearance...is...

Eunice L & Zhi Ting!!!

&

Alison & Rhys!!!

Hahax...If there's any mistake, tell me! xD

P.S. This is strictly for entertaintment purposes only, please dont be offended by our joke...

P.P.S. The couples are NOT REAL!

P.P.P.S. Leave a comment xD

Choral Speaking Couples

My Version of Choral speaking Couple List...Currently...

Pairs...

Eunice X Maegen

Hui Min X Hui Shan

Hui Min X Leh Theng

Hui Min X Yan Yan

Hui Shan X Yan Yan

Yan Yan X Bei Bei

Eunice X Zhiting

Alison X Rhys

Our conductor X Yan Yan

Paula Abdul X Fennie

...Just know these ppl at the moment...will update if I know the other's name...hehe...

BTW...

I'm Currentlt Addicted to this Song!!! (even tho its not new) haha...

And Eunice...I WANNA SEE YOURS!!! EVERYONE'S WAITING!

What a DAY!!!

God! Is today the worst day ever??

Came early today, waited for JY since Eunice missed the bus (lol)...so I waited...and waited...and waited...NO ONE!!! I saw a 'plane' fly over...zzz...Then I went to the stadium to see if Longgan or Hui Min is there...but not a single dancers!!! I thought I was the only one coming!!!

Then by 9a.m. I went to pusat sumber to use the internet to check out some songs. So I waited for the page to load...and wait...and wait...NOTHING!!! Its so DAMN SLOW!!! It was already 9.50a.m when Eunice came through the pusat sumber doors and the first thing she said to me is "So Your here all along! Longgan has been looking for you all morning1" something like that la...

Then Longgan and Yan2 came in after that, and we chated a little and Yan2 bit my arm coz I've never let her bit me before...AND ZOMG! It was very different from Longgan's! Its still hurt tho...haha...and there's still marks!

Tadaa! But it looks more like a lipstick mark than a bite mark...xP

Then all of us, Longgan, Eunice, Yan2, Pam and me, went on a SPAMING rampage!!! Hahaha! Then Yan2 had to leave so, we spam her too...LOLX!

So My worst day had nearly cleared our and then we chated for the rest of the day til school started...We chated about hosting a Choral Speaking Group Gathering on a certain day, and its a MUST come...hope you all will tell us about your free time so we'll arrange it...

Then class started soon after coz time was passing so quickly, we went to watch a 'anti-ponteng sekolah' campaign, more like 'anti-dadah' campaign... good thing all the actors are malays, or sia xui the chinese...haha

There's still things I want to write...But its 5.35a.m. in the morning now and I'm secretely using the comp...haha...my mum will KILL me if she finds out...T.T...she nearly locked me in the computer room when I use it over the time I gave her...T.T I wonder what she'll punish me if she finds out...

O-M-G

I couldnt sleep at Saturday 12.53am (more like Sunday already)...xD

My head is full of dancing and hip hop...Zzzz...Then, I remembered Hui Min doing the Baby Freeze, which is so cool, but I couldnt do it when I asked them to teach me (I gave up trying), but the thought came back to me and I was eager to learn it again since I couldnt sleep...

So I tried a few times, falling down on my face the whole time too, then I figured I did it wrongly and checked the net for tutorials (youtube), I found 2 useful videos and did what they taught, and it turns out that my leg was placed wrongly!

After switching my position, I easily did it! But not as good as Hui Min since she could do it longer, I couldnt stay still for too long coz my balancing was off in a few seconds...zzz...

But I DID IT!!! Its so COOL!! I mean, after practice and failing, I DID IT!!! xD